Recently I've had friends go to Thailand, Cambodia, Laos and Vietnam. There has been this small pull inside me! No destination known, I just drove. ~Zachary Scott, ♦ And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. The occasion is usually also a conference were I get an opportunity to travel. I really want to run away and die. Now I can go to sleep and snore just as loud as my dogs or doing now. You should do it, you have 1 year before the nest is empty. Living with treatment resistant depression, medication only prevents me from being immensely sad all of the time, but not from a general sadness. Live as if you'll die today. And smile to myself. After a prolonged period of job stress, I was relieved to have something to look forward to—a few hours to explore the American Southwest on the day before an academic conference. Have you watched the movie-"into the wild"? Nothing available since it was a small tight knit community. ~Hazel Lee, ♦ If you wait, all that happens is that you get older. No more human contact. ~Allen Saunders, 1957, ♦ Lost time is never found again. my email is johnelliott1970@gmail.com. So I want it longer, much longer. I wanted to keep going, farther into the desert, putting mile after mile between me and everyone else. I take a moment to just stop and look around me. To be honest, I've always known it but I've been lucky in a sense to have experienced a little of what I need. Do our careers/philosophies/relationships serve us in our spiritual development? Yes, I know, we all do. Too long. I'm sooooo over the "American Dream".. We tried, not a huge effort, but enough to test the waters. The future is promised to no one. The end of times. My job is stressful and I always want to to just pack up and leave. I want to start over. Mark, Hi Kelly, Have you gotten away for a while yet? Take Care all of you. To be free like a sorrowing eagle! He took me fishing and placed me in the middle of train trestle. The times when I feel like that it's usually because I want to be alone. This big piece of calm and happiness over my heart and soul! Ironic because we can never really run away. Even with no family obligations, I do still want to run away from this world of people. That movie Paris, Texas is kind of haunting. Hi Zachary. And it wasn’t long until I started to find that rhythm of the open road—a feeling so potent in the Southwest, with its wide-open vistas and exotic rock formations beckoning on the horizon. Simone. He looks pretty good for a suicide. Hi gottagogo do u still leave all the time do u still want to travel i think its awesome that u do and of u ever want a travel partner im here. The conference was the main reason for the trip, and I had made a commitment to attend. Can I suggest something instead of living with small civilisation? I don't want that, I want peace and quiet with freedom to come and go. Why run when I can just plan a mini vacation. share. But just go!! I'm tired. Death II. It's like looking out at the sea or up at the redwoods. I was bummed out and burned out. fake. I get a little relief when I can run away to Palm Desert for a weekend, but then I have to come home. Then I'd really had the urge to escape. I also could have used better self-care before that trip, along with more opportunity to process my thoughts and feelings. You and I share that same urge to run away that started at a very early age. I'm going to plan. Right now I have been fantasizing that I could check out for six months and just go do something completely different, all by myself. It can seem indulgent, perhaps even selfish. Immediately less tears began to fall. ~Oliver Wendell Holmes, ♦ I held a moment in my hand, brilliant as a star, fragile as a flower, a tiny sliver of one hour. I've done much soul searching and I know I need a life different to this. To enjoy just being somewhere, rather than rushing from somewhere, to somewhere. I'm terrified and lonely. I don't really believe I would actually hike "forever". Must I check off each day of my life as if I am subtracting from this imaginary hoard? What the hell am I thinking? What this book. But with too many responsibilities and bills, that's an impossible choice as the end result would just be catastrophic and only cause my problems to be bigger as I don't have a million dollar (or anywhere close) runaway money account. to scream most of the time. I am not going to try to give any advice but rather I would suggest that both of us help think of away we can get out of our current situation. Genesis 5:24 tells us, "Enoch walked with God; then he was no more, because God took him away." EW brings you the latest breaking TV news, along with exclusive first looks, recaps, reviews, and interviews with your favorite stars. Neither felt right for me as I have too much of a creative drive and need to create my own life, purpose and direction with passion. I found a place to stay and spent the night. It was essentially a long vacation. Tell me more about your situation. It helps you seize those precious moments that, if lost, may never be retrieved. - Benny Hill. ~Larry McMurtry, Some Can Whistle, ♦ Minutes are worth more than money. Directed by Wes Anderson.Written by Wes Anderson and Owen Wilson. My father took me fishing one day. Ummm yea I saw that movie. Bye! But I don't think it really solves all that much because we always take ourselves with us wherever we go. I come from a great family, had a wonderful upbringing and have been lucky to have had a number of wonderful experiences in life. Answer: According to the Bible, Enoch and Elijah are the only two people God took to heaven without them dying. Put on some good music on and GO!! I do my very best to stay away from people at all All I wanted to do was to keep driving. But then, I both love and fear the day when they are actually independent and won't need me anymore, the time when I could be free to hike forever. The Royal Tenenbaums is a 2001 film about a family of former child prodigies that reunites when their estranged father announces he has a terminal illness.. A Simple Trick That Can Transform All of Your Relationships, A New Way to Understand Your Partner’s Rage, No Time for Self-Care? Anyway, a computer problem last Tuesday was the final straw. A loving relationship can be an oasis in uncertain times, but nurturing it requires attention, honesty, openness, vulnerability, and gratitude. I'm a 49 year old male. Hike from spring until late summer, live more or less like a gatherer (mushrooms for example), return to some shelter for the winter, could be a little apartment or simply a hut somewhere close enough to civilization: it has libraries, coffee shops, conferences, and there's work I can do. And I can't do a damn thing about it. Driving away for the day with great music has always been my medicine, too. I just don't need or want that. The Impulse to Run Away from It All" was spot on. Let's think of other ways to get away. However, all of them do matter, and not one is totally useless." It's so hard being torn between two parents. I have always loved my work. I didn’t want to go the conference. I need that drive again. But at least I had the good sense (actually it was not a conscious decision) to get married and have kids! It was like the tip of the iceberg. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. Bagging it all and just taking off is a very seductive fantasy, I have it a lot. Maybe I'm blabbing but I'm fed up. No amount is too big or too small, and I will read every e-mail and consider every need and want. 80% Upvoted. Your comment to the article, "Looking for an Escape? They can really assist individuals in learning and comprehending not to rush life, because it will only be terminated someday, as we all know. I cannot think, work or talk to ANYONE. So at the end of your life's journey, if you die, you die either of hunger or of cold. Well...I guess not. It was exactly what I started thinking mid-way through the reading of the post. It has been really helpful to read all of these comments, and know that I, that we, are not alone. Now in my early 40s, my 3 children are almost out of the house. 2/22/2016 I posted here that I wanted to take my wife and leave everything else about my life behind. No matter how weary or dreary you may feel, you possess the certainty that, during the day that lies before you, absolutely anything may happen. Truly fed up and there's no need for it. Mark. Ultimately, what I want is a life that is centered in love. If enough others would do the same, there wouldn't even be the idiocy of being disconnected to "civilization". I had finally decided to plan my escape. I have two wonderful children. ~Stephen Levine, ♦ Why be saddled with this thing called life expectancy? During this time I went around to my old school, homes and farms with no one to tell me when and where to go. I'm talking about taking it out and chopping it up. We so often fill our days with unnecessary stress and strife by focusing on the negative instead of the positive, taking part in mean-spirited and hurtful gossip, making mountains out of mole hills, or bickering over issues that in the larger scheme of things are inconsequential. Terrible feeling! I'm the head of my house hold and business owner and I want nothing more than to run... My son is 15 and still has 3 years to go in high school but I'm finding it harder to be patient every year that passes. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson, ♦ Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable. I try my hardest to get where I need to be but I don't always have the energy and sometimes I think of others needs before my own. When you leave you may just be lonely to where ever you go. I think about all the time. Our two children are married, kids and live away. I did eventually make it back to the hotel that night, and I went to the conference as planned. I am already planning to do that already but in a warmer climate. Leave completely. At this stage in my life I'm STILL wanting to walk away--more like drive away. ~Harriet Beecher Stowe, Little Foxes, 1865, ♦ Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways. Knowing I'm stuck here and I just have to deal with it sucks. All through the rest of elementary school I had this constant urge to walk out of the room. And ever since I was alittle boy! Hope all is going well! We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand, and melting like a snowflake. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, ♦ We are always getting ready to live but never living. Each and every one of them is a gem and I know I'll be writing a few of these down and taping them to my mirror as a reminder to myself. ~Sydney J. Harris, ♦ You only live once; but if you live it right, once is enough.